This weekend has been a huge moment for reflection.

I am trying to sleep... and trying to get some sort of a "normal" schedule down... but so far, it's not working.

A friend has taken a sudden turn for the worse... and I fear she may not survive the illness that has her in it's clutches... but I know that whatever happens... it will be her decision... .and I trust it to be the right one. This has (for me) brought all kinds of emotions to the surface... and makes me realize not only how precious life is... but how much we take for granted.

Deep within my own feelings of pity (or some sort) ... of wanting to move... and being fixated on that... I realize how superficial it is. How I must make the best of the situation I am in... right here.. right now. And if it means staying ... then so be it. I resolve to concentrate on continuing to clear out... organize... and forge ahead with life.. no matter where that is.