It’s been a really rough couple of weeks since ZeeZe passed. I am not doing well. This whole week, on the few occasions that I have been able to sleep… it has been compromised with nightmares featuring my mom. It occurred to me today, that she passed almost exactly a year ago… so I guess in some sort of twisted way, it makes sense. That said… I am cranky, and very sleep deprived.

I haven’t made anything really, other than a couple sort of ‘creative’ dinners.. … since Christmas. I (finally) was able to make a pair of earrings in the wee hours of the night. Just simple, long drops that have Snowflake Obsidian star shaped beads, vintage Czech glass crystal beads, and hand cast pewter charms by Vincent Cav of Inviciti Jewelry. It’s not much…. but hopefully, it’s a start.

I’ve also been trying to go thru our collection of books. I went through all the shelves, and grabbed a stack of books to skim and pass on to others. I am still working on the skimming part… but I am getting there. These would probably all be considered ‘personal growth’ kinds of books…. with the exception of the top book which is a vintage 1960 edition of The Herbalist by Joseph Meyer (apparently I had 2 copies).

I’ve just been devastated about losing ZeeZe. I look for him everywhere…. he was such an integral part of my daily existence, as well as being a loving companion. I miss him so. I find so often, that I am watching shows about dogs…. searching for rescue pups online…. reading about pups that others have… am sure you get it. I just feel so responsible about his passing, and wish I had had much more time with him.

And… I have been crippled by the news on the political front. I have severe fear for the future, especially with thoughts to what is left of our democracy here in the US. That said…. it’s a new month…. and an election year… so I am trying very hard to gather up some shreds of optimism. Stay well, my friends.