1-29-19

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So what I haven’t had the time and energy to say on here….

Mom went to the doctor’s on the 21st.. which was a big ordeal in of itself. She was started on a medication for her severe dementia, as she has had increasing episodes of agitation and restlessness, particularly at night. She has been getting up a minimum of 8 times a night (with me providing help), but on her worst, she was up 22 times in the span of 5hours. The first few days she did alright on the medication.. sleeping much better through the night. However, as of Wednesday at 8am… she proceeded to stay up for 53hours straight. She was delusional, agitated, combative. By Friday, the original med should have been out of her system, and we started a different one. Since then, she has been mostly sleepy, yet still restless, with some very brief periods of coherence. She is tolerating only sips of liquids. The last food she ate was Thursday evening. She has tried to choke on the simplest of things since then, so that has been stopped…. per her written wishes.

Needless to say, her care needs have increased dramatically, and we have moved her into the living room for closer observation. She has been designated as Palliative Care, but tomorrow there will be an assessment by members of the Hospice team, and we will go from there. I am hoping to get a hospital bed provided for our ease of use, as well as improved comfort for her.

Life is crazy, wonderful, full… and exhausting. More tomorrow.

1-28-19

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1-27-19

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1-26-19

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Unused wishes sit
Waiting in the morning sun
Dreams for tomorrow

-elayne.1/26/19

1-25-19

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The rough times continue… but we’ll get through it.

1-24-19

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really bad day. So I’ve edited this photo from a couple years ago that I haven’t posted.

1-23-19

everything is covered with a frozen rain…. and it’s very pretty, even though it’s very cold and slippery.

1-22-19

There are 6 deer in the yard, but at 10 degrees, even ZeeZe is thinking twice about chasing them around the yard.

1-21-19

Busy day. <3 Mom went to the doctor's... is physically fine (had some weight loss which is normal for her age and inactivity/ muscle wasting). And we will be trying a new medication to hopefully help with some of the symptoms of her dementia.
<3 Hopefully, this will be a sign of more rest ... for everyone.

The photo for today is an old one from 2011 that I never edited. It shows some (at the time) new apartment buildings in the Nob Hill neighborhood of Albuquerque.

1-20-19

1-19-19

The much anticipated storm is here, and snow is coming down this weekend…..

I would do laundry, but I can’t … it’s been several weeks and although we were able to get a new washer and dryer, we can’t hook them up until the electricity is checked (again) … there were (literally) sparks coming out of them Thursday. It’s frustrating… but certainly not the worst that could be happening. I am exhausted. I had over 2 weeks of not sleeping at night/ barely sleeping during the day … with mom; and not that past 2 days I have hardly been awake. It’s all good. Thank goodness for my family. Now for some tea…

1-18-19

this too… is an older photo that I never edited. Today is overcast and dreary… cold and windy… and I’ve no desire to go outside. I thought this photo, at least, cheered and warmed a bit.

1-17-19

Occasionally, I will be using photos for my #createDaily project that I have previously taken, but not edited. This is one of them. I took this photo a couple years ago… but never took the time to edit, and so I did today. I like the way it turned out :)

And today… Mary Oliver passed away.

My world has dimmed … she was a much beloved poet; and she will be missed.

1-16-19

Dr. appointment today… and another couple coming in the next few weeks >>sigh<<

On the plus side, we have steak, cheese and crackers… one of the benefits of being able to order things online. ZeeZe has been doing much better on his new medications, and hasn’t had a seizure in over a week. Michael is looking for work… Kristin is cutting back on work… Jim is happy with his work… and I am trying to find time to work. So there ya’ go :)

For today though, it is cold and overcast…. and I am thinking about a much needed cup of tea and a nap.

1-15-19

Doctor appointment today, and another tomorrow…. >>sigh<<

On the plus side, I had ordered a wreathe for our front door to get us through til spring, and it arrived today. It is stunning… and smells heavenly….

1-14-19

well, over the weekend I was able to finally go through the rest of the collage materials…. and now I need to go through all the sewing supplies, fabric and linens. It is a long process to go through things, but I really need to unload. If/ when we ever move, it will be great to not have so much to pack and load. If we never move, it will still be lighter in here.

I am continuing my #createDaily photos. The photo for today is one I took a couple years ago…. but never edited.

1-13-19

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1-12-19

sensitive fern spores…. braving the cold.

1-11-19

This is an older photo, but one I newly edited today. At one time, I was on 13 different medications for my Lupus and various other issues. Today… I just use a rescue inhaler for my asthma, and CBD oil for pain. It’s wonderful to not be on so much.

1-10-19

it’s snowing…..