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winters on the farm
the scent of snow on the hay
still makes my heart smile

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I took this photo years ago... of a gorgeous barn in my hometown.
I knew the family that used to own this farm, and even worked for them for a year... cooking and cleaning and such.
 I found the photo today; as I was going through some old photos of mine. I scanned it... and edited it... and here it is.

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hidden beyond sight
who knows what torment crouches there
behind the facade

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up all night... with lots of (physical) pain.
and so it goes.

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unexpected bloom
fearless of winter's frost
resplendent in red

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today I took a short walk; and discovered this gorgeous bloom
... in the dead of winter... 


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wishing you sweetness
warm, pink swirled frosting goodness
that melts in your mouth

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what a week it's been.
So much chaos and unnecessary drama
I can't even fathom it all.
And so I am drowning myself in donuts and tea.
Stay warm (and sweet) my friends.

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there is too much going on right now; and I don't want to spread any kind of negativity by posting about it.
And so... I will leave you all with this photo I took several weeks ago...
and send you all much love.

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This is my "office space"... also known as the kitchen table.
I love it. I get just the right amount of light... and it's warm and nook-like.
And the chair is comfy enough to allow me a couple hours of work at the laptop.

Today it was right around 60 degrees outside this afternoon...
and so I took the time to water the perennials and the trees... and stuff in pots on my porch.
In the midst... I was able to gather 2 bunches of yellow chrysanthemums... 
and a handful of teeny tiny (but gorgeous!) nasturtiums.. .that were stilling blooming in the yard.
And tomorrow... hopefully... I will spend some time in the studio.

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symbols of rebirth
sending light on my journey
of growth and learning

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I love callas.
I have read about them being used for funeral arrangements because of their victorian symbol 
of rebirth and resurrection... but I didn't know that they also symbolize grace, 
purity, and a reverence for the feminine divine.
How perfect that they came to me in a dream....
just as I am about to start on-line schooling in the natural arts, shamanism, herbology and more.

you can read more about callas

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thoughtless tragedy
 one who can't see beyond self
to see pain they cause

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Today I learned of the horrific death of a beloved person back home...
at the hands of a shotgun-wielding ex. 
How very, very sad. 

Above all, we must learn to love one another. 

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everyone step up!
numbers spinning round and round
you feeling lucky?

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of course, the big brew ha ha ... of the past couple of days has been the "powerball NM" lottery.
It reminded me of being a little girl, and getting so excited to see the holiday SEARS catalogue..
and to  play the game of "if I could have anything I wanted"... whilst looking thru the pages.
It's nice to dream.

((this photo was taken at "The Big Texan" in Amarillo.
I have only played a slot machine once--yrs ago in the airport at Las Vegas...
but sometimes it sure is tempting to try))


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this life can be rough.
as wild as the winter winds
and yet... beautiful

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some days are just a struggle.
You try, and try... and things just feel awkward... like everything is much too difficult.
This whole week has been like this.

I could ponder at the reasons... but it really doesn't matter.
I am trying to move on. 
Trying to be the best photographer/ wife/ mother/ friend/ artist/ person... I can.
And I demand so much more of myself than you could possibly imagine... or perhaps, not enough...
I am never sure. But there it is.

I do know one thing though. 
I love taking photographs... 

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passionate whispers
tales from a time long ago
staring out to sea

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there is such a romance in lighthouses... at least for me.
I took this photo back in February; on a trip to California.
We came across this beauty near Petaluma... and even in it's sorry condition... it was stunning

When I was just a teen... I longed to own a camper/bus that would allow me to travel around the US documenting in photos
... the last remaining lighthouses. Obviously, that hasn't come to pass... but it's still a dream...

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looking for the light
in this otherwise dark world
can be quite trying

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((I took this photo this year on a short trip up to the ruins in Aztec, NM
It's a very cool place))

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dug up from the earth
glass vessels from years gone by
broken; like me

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I was gifted these wonderful old glass bottles (from a dear friend)...
who had collected them from a local treasure-hunting place; known as the glass graveyard.
I have some of my own... that I've worked into art pieces...
and am looking forward to working with these ones as well.
As to the Haiku... I am exhausted. Mentally, physically, spiritually. 
It's just been a rough day.

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...between the devil 
and the deepest blue tv...
i'd take a good book

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I love graffit art... I saw this tag downtown yesterday when my hubby took me out for coffee